Secrets of the Underworld

She's worked with clients on ventilators. She's been briefed by mothers before sessions begin. And she believes disabled people have the same sexual needs, fantasies and rights as everyone else - they're just never allowed to say it.
Saurora is a sex worker, sexologist, and fierce advocate for disability sexuality. In this episode she takes us inside her work: the practical realities of intimacy with clients who have cerebral palsy, muscular dystrophy and spinal cord injuries, and why she believes shame is the real barrier.
She also opens up about her own story: bullied at school, sexually curious from a young age, raised by an alcoholic single mother she adored — and how her mum's death became the catalyst that made her stop hiding and start living out loud.
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Amanda Householder grew up inside the troubled teen industry — not as a student, but as the daughter of its operators. Her parents ran Circle of Hope Girls Ranch in rural Missouri, a facility that used religion, forced labour, isolation and physical abuse to control the young women in their care.
Amanda takes us from her earliest memories of life inside faith-based group homes, to the moment a TikTok video went viral and finally brought the ranch to the attention of authorities. She opens up about the punishment systems, the staff who stayed silent, the town that looked the other way — and the personal trauma she has carried for decades.
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*Content warning: This episode contains detailed discussion of domestic violence, sexual assault and coercive control.*
For sixteen years, Zoe lived with a man she believed was troubled but trying — a husband who attended church, raised a family and told her his mental health was to blame for his behaviour. Behind closed doors, the abuse was relentless: physical, psychological, financial and sexual. But the most devastating truth didn't come from police. It came from his own mouth.
When Zoe's husband confessed, he didn't just admit to an affair. He admitted to drugging her tea and assaulting her while she slept. What followed was a battle through the courts, through a community that took sides, and through her own body — which began to break down under the weight of years of unprocessed trauma.
Now, having waived her anonymity and co-founded the End I Check campaign, Zoe is speaking out — not just for herself, but for the hundreds of women across 28 countries who have recognised their own stories in hers.
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Marina Lacerda returns to finish her story — and this time, she goes deeper.
In this second conversation, Neil and Marina explore the psychological grip Jeffrey Epstein held over his victims, the chilling way he wielded power and control and how Marina's childhood trauma shaped her ability to survive what others couldn't fully comprehend.
She opens up about the abusive marriage she stayed in for years, the moment she finally broke her silence in Washington and the healing that only began once she found the courage to walk away from everything that had been holding her down.
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Marina Lacerda arrived in New York from Brazil as a child, hoping for a better life with her mother. Instead, she found herself trapped in years of abuse at home — and then, at just 13 years old, was introduced to Jeffrey Epstein.
In part one of this conversation, Marina shares how her traumatic upbringing made her vulnerable to exploitation, how Epstein groomed her and used her to recruit other young girls and how she only recently learned — decades later — the full extent of what was done to her. She also opens up about the mother who knew but didn't protect her, a marriage marked by abuse and the long road toward healing.
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