The Unreliable Narrator

I was feeling anxious, uninspired, and stuck in a scroll loop, until I learned that my own creativity could become practical magic for breaking my addiction to my phone.
This episode unpacks how screen burnout affects your creativity, mental clarity, and peace — and how to finally reset, so you can stop consuming and start creating.
If your phone has become your go-to escape but somehow makes you feel worse, you're not imagining it. I dig into the loneliness that was hiding beneath my bad habits, the guilt that sometimes comes with stillness, and why doing nothing might actually be the key to doing everything. It’s not about productivity hacks — it’s about reclaiming your attention, your energy, and the quiet magic of your own creativity.

Read the full essay on Substack: Practical Magic for the Chronically Online
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You can’t make this stuff up… and yet, it really happened.
I received an actual exorcism — from my ex.
Upon reflection, this may have been a very necessary side quest, because nothing else seemed to break the chokehold he had over my heart, mind, and maybe even my spirit. If you’ve ever dated someone who made you feel like your soul was slipping out through your eyeballs… this one’s for you.
From gaslighting to demons, in this episode of The Unreliable Narrator, I unpack all the wild, subtle, and terrifying ways we convince ourselves we're crazy — because it's incredible what you can justify (or even believe) when you’re not thinking clearly.
We talk about:
Subtle signs your partner might be draining your life force

My literal late-night exorcism

How stress and toxic relationships impact our physical health

The blurred lines between emotional trauma and spiritual misalignment

And how to finally call your energy back

Think of this episode as your personal sage stick — but with sarcasm, soul, and maybe a little screaming.

Share this episode with someone who needs to be saged, and drop a comment below telling me:
What’s the craziest thing you’ve ever gone along with… for a man?
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This week, we’re peeling back the layers of friendship — the slow fades, the silent resentments, and the moments we realize we’re playing a part we no longer want. Why do we stay in friendships long after they stop fitting? Why do we feel like the bad guy for, realizing that someone else is a shitty friend? And when is it time to stop faking it altogether?

Spoiler: it’s messier, sadder, and somehow more beautiful than you might think.
In This Episode:
The Mythical Unicorn: Realistic Expectations vs. Impossible Standards in Friendship

The Ghost in the Group Chat: When to Speak Your Piece and When to Leave Quietly

The Hierarchy of Heart Space: Why Not Everyone Deserves an All-Access Pass to Your Life

Letting Go With Grace: How to Release Friendships Without Resentment or Drama

A Quick Note on the Rebrand:
Hi everyone — it’s Allie. I wanted to let you know that Always Anxious is officially: The Unreliable Narrator.
I love a good rebrand almost as much as I love overthinking everything — but truly, this shift feels right. As I grow into my voice as a writer and storyteller, I wanted a name that better captures what this space has always been about: sharing life the way it’s actually felt, not perfectly remembered. Thank you for growing with me and I'm excited to be able to focus on sharing what really matters to me here.
This Podcast was always meant to simply be a way to make my essays more accessible to you, so if you enjoyed listening check out my Substack for more essays like this.

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If you’re in your feels after reading — or just need something to soundtrack your quiet exits, here’s a playlist inspired by FAKING IT WITH FRIENDS.

What happens when girlhood ends before you're ready — and womanhood begins on someone else’s terms?
In this deeply personal episode of Always Anxious, I unpack the invisible pressures women face to grow up at the “right” time, in the “right” way, with the “right” outcome — and how almost none of us ever do.
While writing my essay The Quiet Collapse of Girlhood, I sat down with two of my close friends — Tallulah Willis and Sara Coates — for honest conversations about growing up, body image, public scrutiny, identity, and the quiet grief that often comes with leaving girlhood behind. From generational trauma to societal timelines to the aching nostalgia of innocence lost, this episode dives deep into the pain, the power, and the personal reclamation of becoming a woman on your own terms.
This one is tender, emotional, and full of moments I hope remind you that you're not alone.
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I titled this article Becoming the Unreliable Narrator: How Lying to My Journal Saved My Life and Ended My Relationship because both are true. Finding the clarity and courage to leave a toxic relationship gave me a second chance at life. Who I was born to be, who I know myself to be, and who I have yet to become all hung in the balance of the decision to walk away and never look back. Read the full article and view the referenced images on Substack