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This episode touches on grief, loss, endometriosis, fertility, and mental health. If any of these topics are close to home for you right now we hope this conversation makes you feel less alone, not more overwhelmed.
Everyone's Performing Fine. Nobody's Performing Fine. Christina Pengilly
We're all exhausted by the highlight reel.
In this episode I sit down with Christina Pengilly host of Talk Therapy.. for one of the most honest conversations I've had on this podcast.
We didn't follow a plan. We just talked. And what came out of it was exactly what this space needs more of.
Christina is someone who has lived multiple lives  elite basketball player, psychology graduate, small business owner, coach, creator and she's built something real out of every single one of them. But behind the polished online presence is a woman navigating the same fears, doubts, and dysregulation that most of us are too scared to admit out loud.
This one goes deep.
In this episode we cover:
The queen of the pivot ..why Christina has never been willing to stay in something just to prove a point and what that's actually cost her
The basketball identity ... two ACL reconstructions, losing everything she thought she was at 15, and the years it took to find herself again
The psychology degree she stood on stage with and immediately knew she'd never use the traditional way
Why she built Talk Therapy right in the middle of her hardest season .. not after she figured it out
The online space and why the independent narrative is quietly wrecking relationships
Cruise what it actually looks like behind closed doors, how she shows up for him as a man, and why she refuses to speak about him any differently in rooms he's not in
Endometriosis, fertility fears, and trusting your body when everyone around you is moving into a chapter you're not sure you're ready for
The protector pattern and the moment I turned down a Brisbane Broncos contract because of one
Why 10k followers hit different even when you know your worth has nothing to do with a number
What you actually owe the people who created you
And the one takeaway she's taking into the rest of her life from today
Connect with Christina:
Instagram: @christinapengilly
Podcast: Talk Therapy , available on all platforms
Connect with Travis:
Instagram: @the.technician__
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You're Not Fucked Up. You're Protected.
Most people spend years thinking they're broken. They're not. They're just running outdated protection software from a younger version of themselves that still thinks they're in danger.
In this episode I break down the five most common protectors I see running the lives of high performers..and how they're quietly capping your money, your relationships, and your identity without you even knowing it.
We cover:
The Peacekeeper — loved by everyone, known by no one
The Achiever — high functioning panic attack dressed as ambition
The Lone Wolf — strong as hell, lonely as fuck
The Performer — charismatic mask, zero belonging
The Controller — safe, stuck, and missing every opportunity
This isn't therapy speak. This is pattern work. And once you see these running.. you can't unsee them unfortunately my friend.. 
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Grieving My Kids While They're Still Alive — Luke O'Neill
Some episodes change you. This is one of them.
Luke O'Neill is one of my closest mates ..someone I've known for over 20 years. And for the first time, he sat down and told his story publicly.
Four years ago Luke came home from work and his kids were gone. What followed was 3.5 years of family court, $180,000 in legal fees, ambiguous loss, identity collapse, and a fight to stay alive.. not for himself, but so his kids would one day know they were worth fighting for.
This episode isn't about the system that failed him. It's about the man who had everything stripped away and refused to break.
We go deep on:
What ambiguous loss actually is ..and why it might be harder than grief
How Luke future-paced his way through the darkest days
What real support looks like when someone is suffering
Why isolation can be healthy..and when it isn't
The identity death that comes with losing your role as a father
How love ..not anger ..became the thing that kept him going
This is the conversation men need to be having. No performance. No anger. Just the truth of what it costs to stay standing when everything is taken from you.
Part 2 is coming. There's a lot more story to tell.
If this episode hit you ..if you've been through something like this or you're in it right now ..reach out. To Luke directly at @luke_o.neill_ on Instagram. Or to me at @thetechnician — I'm always open to hearing what landed for you and what questions you want answered in Part 2.
You are not alone in this.
Trigger warning: This episode contains discussions of grief, family separation, mental health, and the emotional impact of family court on children and parents.

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This is INNERCINEMA.
Not a meditation. Not a therapy session. Not a breathing exercise with some lo-fi music underneath it.
INNERCINEMA is a full somatic experience designed to take you somewhere most personal development content is too scared to go inside. To the parts of yourself that sit underneath the achieving, the performing, and the relentless forward motion you've been calling ambition.
This episode is for the high performer who has built something real, hit real numbers, done real work on themselves and still can't shake the feeling that something is missing.
If the wins keep coming but the fullness keeps not coming ..this one is for you.
Disclaimer: This experience is intentionally intense and emotionally activating. If you're looking for a relaxing wind-down meditation this isn't it. If you're ready to crack something open press play, find somewhere quiet, close your eyes, and stay with it.
If anything comes up that feels too big to sit with alone..reach out. That's what I'm here for.

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THE TECHNICIAN PODCAST
WHAT IF YOUR DAD DIDNT HURT YOU? 
What if the thing you've been carrying your whole life..the wound, the unworthiness, the need to prove yourself .. was never actually about what happened to you... but about the story your child brain made up about what happened?
This week I sat down with Mitch Hunter - physiotherapist turned meditation teacher, academic turned mystic, and one of the most grounded spiritual humans I've ever met. 
Mitch has 30+ years of meditation practice, has trained in Buddhist monasteries and caves in India, worked in chronic pain at university level, and had a stabilised spiritual awakening in 2019 that completely redirected his life.
This conversation went places I didn't expect. We talked about what meditation actually is (and why most people are doing it wrong), how your nervous system holds onto experiences your conscious mind has forgotten, and why the most powerful healing tool on the planet isn't a technique, it's your own awareness.
Mitch shared the story of a childhood memory that surfaced during deep meditation.. his dad burning two sticks that meant the world to him as a 9-year-old ..and how seeing that moment through adult eyes dissolved decades of overachieving, people-pleasing, and proving his worth. No therapy. No framework. Just objective truth.
We also went deep on my own journey — a past life experience during holotropic breathwork that unlocked a shame pattern I'd carried my entire life, and how one moment of being truly seen cracked it wide open.
In this episode:
— Why concentration comes before meditation and why most people skip the step that matters most 
— The difference between data and drama, and how your brain weaponizes meaning against you 
— How Mitch went from physiotherapy clinic to Buddhist monasteries to a 5,000-year-old temple ceremony with 2 million people
 — What actually happens in the body during a spiritual awakening (and why Mitch lost 10kg in 3 weeks)
 — The one question that changes everything: "What literally happened?" 
— Why the people most triggered by your truth are the ones who need you most 
— How living your truth isn't about chasing peak experiences
 — it's about being fully present while you take your sausage dog for a pee
This one's for the men who've done the work but still feel like something's missing underneath it all.
Connect with Mitch Hunter: Instagram: @_hunterhealing 
Website: hunterhealing.com 
Email: [email protected]
Connect with Trav: Instagram: @thetechnician 
Podcast: The Technician Podcast